Thank you all for your support. I don't think that I have the focus or sanity to respond to you individually, but thank you all
I feel like I owe you an explanation for that last journal. Actually, that's a lie. But I do
want to post what's going on so that anybody who wants to know where I'm at can see it. Feel free to either read it or not; it will be a sizable wall of text.
Let me start with what I do for a living. I'm currently self-employed and work as a contractor, primarily for a towing company. My work starts when I'm offered a task to perform and ends when I complete it, so I never know more than a few hours in advance whether or not there will be work for me, how long it will take, or, more pressingly, how much I stand to make.
Given the uncertain nature of my work, it's really a crapshoot as to what I'll be doing. Some days, I'm back by two in the afternoon, but on the other hand sometimes I'm out for several days straight. If you've been wondering why I haven't been too keen on drawing lately, that's why; I simply don't have the time or energy.
Now I'll get to the root of my problem - this job has to stop (or, at the very least, not be my main source of income.) However, as it stands, I just barely
make enough money to cover my most important expenses, and
I lack the time to seek something more stable and worth my time. This is the source of my stress. I'm walking a razor's edge here, trying to find the minimum amount of time that I can work while making enough to pay the rent without
knowing how much money any given day would bring me
Again, I'd like to thank everybody for their support, kind words, and well wishes. You're all wonderful. You really, truly are.
I'll keep everybody abreast of the situation, hopefully with good news. Until then, take care, and stay awesome